Alex says:
would you ever consider being with her?
Alex says:
if she promised to change?
Alex says:
please?
Kisame says:
no...
Alex says:
.....
Kisame says:
why...?
Alex says:
shes a mess without you....
Alex says:
she recently confided in me about it
Alex says:
she told me that she wants you back really bad
Alex says:
and she would do anything
Kisame says:
Shes told me this
Alex says:
she really misses you....
Kisame says:
I know... she's also told me this
Kisame says:
and i would have accepted that she can change and went back out with her except she ruined it
Kisame says:
I don't want to have anything to do with her
Kisame says:
She lasted EIGHT days before she was dating someone else
Kisame says:
and needing attention or someone to talk to it about is no excuse
Kisame says:
because there are friends, random people, and no one at all
Kisame says:
i didnt date someone eight days after
Kisame says:
i still havent dated
Alex says:
Kiwi, thats just how she goes through break ups
Alex says:
idk wh
Alex says:
y
Alex says:
she just does
Alex says:
but
Kisame says:
and idc why...
Kisame says:
shes not the type of person i could ever spend my life with if that is how she treats break ups or sadness
Kisame says:
all she ever did was make me miserable
Kisame says:
and im happy by myself...
Kisame says:
she ruined her chances
Kisame says:
completely
Kisame says:
by cutting herself, dating random guys again, and dressing like a slut
Kisame says:
everything she knows i hate about girls
Kisame says:
i don't really care weather or not shes a mess
Kisame says:
i am too
Kisame says:
its not like its that easy to stay away from her
Alex says:
Kiwi....
Kisame says:
but the only thing that keeps me from asking her back out for a like millionth chance is that she is a slut
Alex says:
when you otld her you loved her
Alex says:
did yo umean it?
Kisame says:
did
Kisame says:
told
Kisame says:
past tense
Alex says:
so your saying
Alex says:
those feelings of love
Alex says:
are gone?
Kisame says:
pretty close... of course i still love her and want to be with her
Kisame says:
but im doin' my best to crush all of them
Alex says:
your controdicting your self
Alex says:
you just said
Kisame says:
they get small though after you smash them enough
Alex says:
you "did" love her
Kisame says:
but they will be dust sooner or later
Alex says:
which implies not anymore
Kisame says:
i 'spose
Alex says:
but you just said you still love her
Alex says:
so which is it?
Kisame says:
Meh, i will for a bit
Kisame says:
i'm sure ill smash all the little love balls into a fine powder sooner or later
Alex says:
i see...
Kisame says:
scoop up some more pieces of my heart and glue them back together
Kisame says:
Lots to do on my list
Kisame says:
Don't want to be with Nicole =\ don't even think i want to be friends with her
Kisame says:
all she has done since we broke up is guilt trip me, bitch at me, hurt my emotionally but mostly physically, ruin my band trips, invade my friend birthday party, keep my friend and his girlfriend from doing what they want, making my friend miserable, making the people in band hate her more
Kisame says:
and just ruined every small, big, giant, normal sized chance with me
Kisame says:
And she is still doing her best to guilt trip me into getting snared into her trap of a relationship
Kisame says:
how could i date someone who cheated on me for a week, denies it, and bitchs at me every second she gets about how me and jessica apparently had something that made me cheat on Nicole
Kisame says:
i dont even see why i begged so fucking much to get her back when she said i cheated on her
Kisame says:
the she takes my opinion and my word as if its shit
Kisame says:
because jeff said i kissed jessica once and i NEVER did while/before we were dating and she took my friends fucking word over her god damn boyfriends
Kisame says:
AND
Kisame says:
in doing that stupid bitch move i got a breaking curfue thing on my fucking record
Kisame says:
my perfectly beautiful spotless record
Kisame says:
THEN
Kisame says:
she trys to guilt trip me about how SHE pressured me into having sex with her
Kisame says:
i dont give a shit anymore
Kisame says:
she is a hassel
Kisame says:
a waste of my time and happiness
Kisame says:
all she ever does is make me sad
Kisame says:
no matter how good my day is
Kisame says:
no matter how happy i am
Kisame says:
or was
Kisame says:
or will be
Kisame says:
or want to be
Kisame says:
or anything
Kisame says:
its either she makes me sad or she sure as fuck will make me sad somehow
Kisame says:
its like its her fucking goal in life
Kisame says:
i swear to fucking geebus
Kisame says:
the only reason i think christianity is bull shit is because of her
Kisame says:
the fact that god could apparently be such a giant fucking dick hole is what makes me not believe it
Kisame says:
I dont care anymore
Kisame says:
and i WILL smash every last feeling for her
Kisame says:
if its the last thing i do
Kisame says:
smash, rip, tear, throw away, burn
Kisame says:
anything
Kisame says:
killing myself sounds better then being with her
Kisame says:
-_-
Kisame says:
And then after ALL of that she comes up too me all like
Kisame says:
U i swear i've changed
Kisame says:
no
Kisame says:
fail
Kisame says:
she's lost me
Kisame says:
plus i think i'm starting to like someone ele
Kisame says:
else
Kisame says:
someone is who she is all the time
Kisame says:
and doesnt change herself around people
Kisame says:
like my mom
Kisame says:
or my friends
Kisame says:
her friends
Kisame says:
her mom
Kisame says:
she is honest
Kisame says:
and everything i got blinded and tricked into thinking nicole i
Kisame says:
was
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Thats when i decided to add it as a journal so who knows what happened later!
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plus i love someone else